Merry Memory

Savoring the yuletide season still, we thank a dear campus ministry friend for the following,

One day leading up to Christmas a few years ago my husband and I invited some internationals to help us decorate our Christmas tree. Included in the group was an older couple – visiting scholars at a nearby university.

 While the two men busied themselves stringing lights on the tree and about our door and windows, I welcomed the wife to help me set up our nativity scene.

“What is a nativity?”, Molly asked.

“It’s a scene made up of carved figures, symbolic of Jesus’ birth.”

My new friend followed with another question, her expression communicating sincere curiosity, “Who is Jesus and why is this so important?”

While Molly’s question gave me momentary pause, I immediately sensed the wonderful gift God was offering me in this moment. That I might share something of the greatest story ever. How exciting! What followed was remarkable.

Into those coming minutes, I felt my whole being somehow charged with supernatural energy. The near-tangible presence of Christ continuing strong. And, with the placing of each nativity piece – Mary, Infant Jesus, Joseph, the domestic animals of the stall and the rest – this supernatural “energy” did not diminish.

What inexpressible joy, sharing with this dear lady from a far away land the reason we celebrate Christmas. Why we believe Jesus is who he says he is, why he came to earth. And that Jesus not only gives us Christmas but gifts to us an everlasting, personal & intimate relationship with God. Fulll of joy, peace and love.

My friend Molly was so enthralled, listening intently, asking questions to make sure she was understanding.

As we finished the decorating she said, “I want to know more about this Jesus.”

My husband and I made sure she had a Bible and from that day forward she has been reading the Bible and has, for some time now, been participating in a Bible study with someone who speaks her own language.

Although my friend has not yet confessed faith in Christ, her heart is so soft and her questions give evidence that the Holy Spirit is still working to draw her further and further into his wonderful Light. And, even though this couple has returned to their own “restricted-access”  country, we still communicate. Continuing to see God working!

A true Christmas miracle!

While our yearly calendars mark the arrival and the passing of Christmas Day, the present reality of “God with us” continues on and on and on. Until the long awaited day of the final Maranatha. . . Come, Lord Jesus!”

©2024 Jerry Lout                                                       *Molly (substitute name)

Gaspar’s Sign

GASPAR sat atop the gangly beast, his body swaying to its rolling gait. Memories stirred.

The star-gazer sage relished such occasions when he could without interruption review his past, his station in life, and particularly good fortune.

Gaspar was mildly aware that certain virtues had seemed to elude him. Like humility. This, he would not deny. He found himself more often growing uneasy at his self-congratulatory reflections. But only to a measure.

“It was I after all”, he mused afresh, “who first took serious note of that curious beacon disclosing itself in the western sky. And didn’t I, Gaspar,in my scrupulous research, uncover the mystery-promises that seemed perhaps tied to the phenomenon?’

These promises, he reflected, were oral references of ancient Hebrew parchments – oracles predicting a king’s birth. A child-king promised to the Hebrew peoples. . . perhaps even to the world at large.

‘Of Course it was I.’

His shoulders lowered and he breathed out a sigh, still hesitant to credit others who were equally vital to the venture upon which they now embarked. . .

After their months of travel the star’s brightness radiated almost directly overhead now. Gaspar squirmed in his saddle, a curious discomfort had been welling inside him. A mood tracing itself to no specific source that he could call to mind. His saddled shifted again.

The star’s beam – brighter than he had yet observed it – converged it seemed, with another kind of light, a piercing presence exposing the very interior of his  soul.

Gaspar felt a stab of conscience unlike any before. His body gave way to a sudden muffled cry leaving him troubled by his own abrupt sorrowing. He spoke, faintly audible words of severe intensity spilling from his lips.

“Impure! Impure am I. . . arrogant and impure am I!”

Drawing a sharp breath Gaspar choked out an unrehearsed confession – distress punctuating each word, “I have regarded my brothers with contempt.”

His remorse carried forward – the probing light of conviction unrelenting.

“I am unworthy. . .”

“But”, added Gaspar (a bewildering question had formed amidst his confessions),

“Before whose holy face I am unworthy I know not!” What I do know is I dare not proceed to the place of the king-child, not in this state – sullied by this stain.”

Gaspar questioned, reflectively now, ‘Who is this one, this child to whom the light we feel has been guiding us? Might it be he – or the spirit of he – who moves upon me so, here even before I have beheld his face?’

He drew his camel back and brought his cape about his face. At his command the camel knelt and, on dismounting, Gaspar went to his knees. Repeating an earlier refrain he cried, “I must gain mercy. Mercy”.

“Oh Exalted Being”, he whispered, his eyes lifted to the night’s canopy, “Governor of constellations . . Mercy!”

In this moment he sensed a thing wholly new to his former experience. Sitting motionless and in awe, he felt a bathing presence, bathing – Wave on purifying wave. Tender. Cleansing. Joyous. Wave on wave washing over him.

He did not measure how long he lingered, lying there prostrate on the hardened path. Gaspard moved to rise.

His right foot, pressed beneath him so long, had lost feeling. Reaching a hand upward, he grasped a tree’s low-hanging branch. A picture, a metaphor of sorts, came to Gaspar’s mind as he rose and balanced there now on the steady foot. He clung to the branch, gazing at its form, afresh.

“Yes, yes, I am seeing it now. This is who I am, I am a man not able – not of my own might to stand. I am off-balance and much in need of support – such as this tree supplies to my bodily frame now.’ He drew earnest comfort in the musing.

Soon there stirred in him a resolve – and a whispered pledge. He felt his jaw anchor in place. Tears moistened his eyes,

“From this hour I shall walk rightly in the company of others,” the magi whispered. “My brothers – Melchior and Balthazar indeed – and too, my servants as well. Friends unto whom I shall render proper regard, and service. Yes, we shall be – each to the other – a supporting limb. As a branch. “He paused looking upward, “May I find strength.”

Excited voices suddenly cut in, spirited cries from somewhere ahead. Ecstatic, adoring, calls sounded out in varied tongues – Aramaic, Hebrew, Persian, Arabian. All of them announcing, heralding, calling forth a special personage.

The child-king.

A Hebrew’s voice bearing a trace of Persian accent rang out. Clear, crisp, jubilant. The call moved Gaspar. Other voices followed.

Cupping a weathered palm to his ear, he took in a string of wondrous, descriptive exclamations. One by one. . .

“All worship to him, the Christ-child!

“Messiah!”, called another.

Then, “King. . . “Morning star! . . .

“the BRANCH!”

The word seized Gaspar, ‘the Branch?’

Gaspar swallowed hard and a shiver coursed through his body. A breeze touched his face, stirring his beard. He glanced to the tree and its limb, now back of him and beyond reach.

Peering forward once again toward the path ahead he took in the lighted glow of a simple dwelling. A breeze touched his face, stirring his beard. A tender warmth enveloped him. He whispered, “Soon I shall offer up my myrrh to him – my Lord!”

Gaspar mounted his animal which on rising seemed herself taken by the night’s magic, “Bear us forward, camel – do you see the light of the dwelling there, camel? It is there we shall meet a child. .

The King-child. The Branch!”

©2020/2024 Jerry Lout

A Different Christmas

*Blogreader friends: Today’s entry (penned yesterday) is lengthier than usual . I hope you’ll like the fictional narrative’s meaning. . . and spirit.  Merry Christmas all.

Tobi William’s adolescent fingers fished through the kitchen drawer till one of them landed on the prize.

“Here it is, Trina”, the eleven-year-old chimed to his kid sister, “Your turn with the calendar!”

Trina took the Sharpie from the brown-haired boy who was a bare two years her senior. In a sweeping arm-wave of mock theatrics, Trina landed the sharpie’s point on the number 23. “There” she pronounced, “tomorrow night we sleep at Samantha and Caleb’s!”

High-fiving each other they bounded from the room.

Of course, as with most siblings, the two didn’t always see eye to eye. They had their occasional spats and their scraps. But, with special events like the one slated for the very next day, the harmony of the present would go unchallenged.

The two family’s homes lay just a mile apart with their respective neighborhoods, linked by Ozark Blvd.

The children’s parents had struck up an acquaintance with the Butler family through a random encounter 18 months earlier at a nearby park. The friendship deepened through shared interests, their common faith. . . and out of an instantaneous connection between the children.

Caleb and Tobi, for instance, lived to skateboard, a fact to which their legs and arms and other exposed surfaces of the body often bore witness.  An impressive sampling of bruises and partially-healed pavement burns, along with the occasional bandaid dangling here or there at an elbow or shin or knee.

Tobi and Trina’s sleepover at their friend’s home was a departure from the ordinary. After all, who does this on Christmas Eve?

In this instance, however, the sets of parents themselves had set about contriving for the arrangement for just this once.

The Williams had learned that the Butlers had been enjoying a special practice – something to do with setting out a ‘treat’ in readiness of a coming ‘guest’. The items were arranged and placed on a small table near the Christmas tree. The serving was in place well before sunrise on Christmas day. Toby and Trina’s parents felt a Christmas experience in the home of their friends might give their young ones a special enduring memory.

Christmas Eve arrived! Each household enjoyed a nice mealtime to themselves.

At the Butler home a bit after dinner, Samantha and Caleb gazed out a window, studying the trickle of cars passing by their house. Then, seeing a quite familiar car roll into view (it was now around 9:00 pm.) the children danced and rushed outside. Tobi and his sister, laughing with their friends, were welcomed in.

Servings of fresh eggnog appeared. A few minutes later the children (with at least a couple of them bearing ‘milk-like’ rings about their lips) moved to a place near an old but decently-tuned piano. The singing of Christmas carols began.

“Okay, guys, Off to dreamland”, one of the parents announced. Their pajamas donned, the four friends headed upstairs for a reasonably good night’s rest.

“Are they all asleep?”

“Yes, seems like it.”

“I’ll have everything in place before sunrise.”

“Alright. Goodnight”.

“Nite”.

At Christmas dawn the house remained sweetly quiet. For the briefest of moments. Then. . .

“Samantha!” cried Trina, “it’s Christmas!”

With this the four children – in a hastening recovery from blurry eyes and sleepy yawns – made their way downstairs.

What their eyes met brought surprise that registered strongly on each face. It was not a surprise of awe or wonder, but one more of curiosity and puzzlement.

“Mom? Dad? You are here?” said Tobi. “But you dropped us off last night and we thought you. . .” his voice trailed and then picked up again, “and also, why are you guys and Mr and Mrs. Butler. . . why are you all sitting on the carpet there by the little table?”

“Yes, you’re sure right”, Trina’s mother laughed, “we did go back home and that is exactly where we slept. But”, she continued, “we couldn’t think of missing out on this”. Mrs. Williams was motioning to the small table.

The items atop the table that had been arranged on it seemed to be still intact, resting undisturbed beneath a tidy cloth covering.

By now the Williams and Butler children had drawn near – their eight collective eyes fixed on the little table and its modestly veiled burden. Mystery.

Samantha and Caleb’s dad spoke.

“Tobi and Trina, on this special morning, we wanted to have you and your parents – yes, and all of us together – to simply join in the celebration. Celebrating Jesus’ birth by remembering what he came to bring.  . . you know, his Christmas gift. . .”

Mr. Butler paused, smiling.  Then, pretending the look of a professor he asked,

“Now, tell me young students. . . what do you think that gift might have been. . . the one that Jesus came to give?”

After a brief silence, nine-year-old Trina raised a hand. Her already-widened eyes carried a twinkle as if a ‘spark of knowing’ had landed on her pupils.

Acknowledging Mr. Butler’s head nod, Tina declared, “He came and gave himself!” 

“Yes! And that is why. . .” (here the host dad lingered), “Well, that is why that, after we open a few presents here in a little bit, we will all head to the Community Shelter downtown and share some food and clothing with our friends there”.

“Wow”, Samantha whispered.

“But first,” added Mrs. Williams, “let’s celebrate a birthday! . . We will need all you kids for a special part, OK?”

“Sure”.

“Great. Do you remember the part of the one Christmas Carol that goes ‘O Come let us adore him’?”

The children nodded.

“Well, us four parents need all our four children, that would be you, to sing that ‘O Come let us adore him’ part through just a few times softly while we – your moms and dads – receive of the Lord’s Table. In this way we will all be remembering and worshipping our savior, our wonderful Gift-giver the One who gave himself in life and in death. . and even now – living in and through us all.”

At this, the children of the Williams home and the children of the Butlers’ home slipped alongside each other, clearing their voices softly like vocalists sometimes do.

The adults, kneeling near the table, began sharing the communion elements together. The movements caught young Caleb’s eye,

Signaling toward the elements by a nod of his head he whispered to the others just loud enough to be heard,

“What our parents are doing there sure does beat leaving a couple cookies and some milk for a fat little elf dressed in red”. A collective giggle erupted. A fresh clearing of throats followed,

O come let us adore him. . . Chri-i-ist the Lord !🎶

©2024 Jerry Lout

In Pursuit

Although her length and breadth boasts an imposing 1.7 million square miles and hosts a vast mix of ethnicities, each individual inhabitant of the Indian Subcontinent is ‘a story being written’. Through the many years since our meeting, Nuren’s story leaves me smiling and, frankly, in wonder.

When Nuren arrived in Michigan he brought with him a rich heritage of India family and culture. Hearing Nuren recall his grandfather’s role in shaping his life is itself an excursion into a generations-long treasure. While his Hindu upbringing instilled elements that framed some of his worldview, Nuren’s insatiable quest for deeper meaning gave rise to relentless questions.

When a married couple, Amit and Glory – also from India and also student-residents in the Wolverine State – happened to cross paths with Nuren, a bond of friendship began forging. So much so that when the couple moved to Tulsa on a snowy January day for Amit’s further studies, their friend Nuren found every excuse to stay in touch.

Through a host of phone visits and added long drives to Tulsa, Nuren’s questions about the intersection of personal life and the Christian faith were earnestly posed. In a sustained environment of warmth and hospitality, his friends in T-town never wearied of the visits. To the contrary, Amit and Glory continually welcomed their keen-minded, inquisitive friend. Glory’s tasty curries found their way to the simple dining table around which robust questions and the occasional prayer were brought forward.

On a warm Summer day a couple of years after Nuren’s first Tulsa visit, we gathered at the home of veterinary friend Jim Osborn. The water temperature of Jim and Pam’s above ground pool was just right.

While further questions (some not yet thought of) would remain unaddressed for a time, our hungry-for-truth friend Nuren was ready to respond to Jesus’ call, “Come, follow”.

A fresh dry towel appeared. Broad smiles, perhaps a tear or two, touched the faces of several gathered. Glory and Amit beamed. We entered the pool.

“So now, upon the profession of your faith. . in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. . .”

©2024 Jerry Lout